Yes, well, we are still here. Still not in Swaziland. Boy that verse about God’s ways not being like our ways has really been alive and well in my mind lately. And I mean that in a totally GOOD way!
If we had had OUR way, we would have left the day after school was out in May. We wouldn’t have wanted to raise our support, just quietly packed up and gone. Said goodbye to friends and family and hopped on a plane. But God’s way was so different. We had to make our plans known to everyone!! Everyone we could think of got a letter or email or phone call. We had to put it all out there for all to see. For all to “judge”. We had to hear people’s opinions of why we shouldn’t go, why it wouldn’t be the best for our girls. We had to listen to our family’s hearts breaking as they thought of the future with their kids, grandkids, nieces, sisters, sons, brothers being as far away as physically possible.
And worst of all……(at least to me)…..we had to ask for help. For FINANCIAL help. Ugh. Humbling and a little embarrassing and alot hard. It is a very difficult thing to raise support. To ask friends and family to dig deep so that we can go and put the hands and feet to those dollars and love those babies in Swaziland for them. It is just so hard.
Then, we didn’t get to leave when we thought we should. We are still not able to even purchase our tickets. God’s timing is not our timing.
But this week, it was brought to my attention that if we had had it our way, what kind of prayer coverage would we have? Sure, friends and family would know about us and would pray. But since June…..SINCE the time we wanted to leave…..there have been hundreds of VBS children who heard about our story and committed to pray. There have been so, so many families who have committed to us to not only help financially, but to PRAY for us. There have been people that we hadn’t even met back in June that I now count as friends….all because God had a plan to bring us together. To get THEM involved in what He is doing in Swaziland. Who am I to tell Him WHEN to do what He orchestrated in the first place?
So. Yeah, we are still here. No, we don’t have a clue when we will leave. We feel like it will be very soon. We still hope it will be very soon. But we are learning to trust Him and His timing.
A pretty good lesson, I think.
